Hi.

I haven't forgotten you. Really. I'm just busy. Stressed. Allergy-stricken. PMSing.

You know.

But I still love you all.

Back to the grind

Curl the lip, flash white the would-be fangs, that
Inescapable-blather-bound
Lengthen
Slicing pink meat of lip and gum
Only to add heat, red, wet,
To the grimace,
Disdain.

Shut the fuck up, think thought
And eyes.

Rictus, too wide to be a smile,
Draw the flies
That they might smash themselves against the grin,
Hummingbird suicide on invisible glass;
Smile sweet enough and
Eventually
They'll all fall broken, shattered
By ice shards of a cold stare
To the back of the head.

Oh, if only ...

Leave the smoldering behind,
Run fast, little ratchety thing,
All elbow bearings and knee bolts and too much grease -
Run until the rictus cracks,
A laugh or scream or sigh, just to
Break the silence
Of
Seethings and teeth.

Seek solitude to redeem
Or
Close the eyes.



(I really could have used another week of vacation. I never have much patience with trivial bullshit when I return too soon.)

New hair color

It was time for a change.

Preening

It's official. That very high B+ in the one class was bumped up to an A.

I'm on the Dean's List.



Ya know what's better than that? I'm on the M-Fing Chancellor's list.



This is the best I've ever done in school. And I mean ever. I've even had art classes in which I didn't do this well. I'm more than just a wee bit proud.

This feeling - it could be addicting ...

Roadtrip!

Today Matt, Phoenix and I set out on our roadtrip up north to take Phoenix home and hang out with friends. Matt will get to see the best friend he hasn't seen in years, and I'll get to see my best friend, who I see much more often than that but still not nearly enough.

And, as if to send me off in style, I just recived the grades on my last two asisgnments. Both As. I'm grinning real big right now - can you see the glow from wherever you are? Did you hear the "Whooohoooo! YesyesyesyesyesyesYES!" from wherever you are? Betcha did.

Now all that's left to do before we take off is wrap up the little things, like grabbing some snackage for the road, getting Harry some food ( a bit more than usual, too, as we'll be gone a few days) and fresh water, let the apartment manager know where to find Harry's crickets when he comes in to feed him for us on Sunday. The usual.

Have a fantastic weekend, everyone. See ya next week.