Carpe Vita

Floor cold
Tile gold
Scratch the surface and shiver-
Pale light reveals my night
And I whisper back to the whisper:
Take it
Seize it
Make it worth it;
I have only these years.
And despite my raging frustrations
I will face my darkest fear.
Reach up stretch up get up seize-
My senses are shattered
I pick up the pieces
And all I have left to hold on to are these:
It's all lies-
Every fucking thing they promised me
And now in my naked truth I see the smiles
Hiding flashing fangs in maddened grimaces-
I never knew till now that I was drained.
In this reeling darkened place
I smell the ink, paper, leather, glue
(It's only blood and flesh and bones)
And tremble in the shadow of the tomes;
Lost thing huddled
Small and befuddled
I fall open, defenseless,
Bloodied by what I always knew:
Life is what you make it-
Better seize it
Better take it,
Make and shift and mold and hold the truth to you, for
No one but you can make lies true.
Get up
Look up
Meet the eye
Dare, will, and look away
Walk away
Go away
And seize this life.
Escape the prison and spit on the tile-
It's only dust and piss anyway;
What did you expect?
Something you could understand?
Cry if you will
Scream if you will
Get it out and move on;
Don't dance with the masks,
But rip the face
(Don't shiver so- it was never real anyway, you know)
And shatter the backbone-
Then stand on your own two feet;
You know the way.
Blood and ink and skin and tome
I've opened my eyes to see
The darkness was only my own, and
These chains are just me holding me.
Reach up stretch up get up seize-
Shake the woodwork
Loose the leaves
And when I'm buried in the pages
Of my own reality
Let my blood be my ink and my skin tell the tale-
I've seen and I see and I
Think I've got it figured out:
Doesn't matter that they lied to me, cause
I believed and still believe it could have been-
Here's the kick: it could still be.
So, let's review, shall we?
Floor cold
Tile gold
Scratch the surface and shiver-
Pale light reveals my night
And I whisper back to the whisper:
Take it
Seize it
Make it worth it;
I have only these years.
And despite my raging frustrations
I will face my darkest fear.